My friend who got her surprise/miracle BFP yesterday sent me these beautiful flowers. Before the doorbell even rang I had a feeling they were from her. I sat the bouquet on the table and read the card, "To Megan. Love, A." That's all it needed to say. In those four words, I knew everything she was saying to me. Most women don't now how much a pregnancy announcement hurts when you're infertile, but she does. She has been in my shoes and she knows how broken my heart is right now. I know she knows I'm happy for her but that I am also grieving. In the time she should be jumping for joy with happiness, she took the time to think of me in my sorrow. Just goes to show what a wonderful person and friend she truly is.
I fell down on my stairs and began to sob uncontrollably. In that moment, infertility won. Hell, infertility has defeated me this entire week. I wanted to call someone, to be comforted, to not feel so broken but I had no one I could call. No one in my real life understands what this is like. Tomorrow is a new day and I can only hope that it is better but I have little faith that it will be as I've started cramping already.
If there was ever a time to say this, it's now: "FUCK YOU INFERTILITY!!!,
Those are gorgeous & you truly have a beautiful friend! I'm really glad you have her in your life. I hope your BFP comes very very soon! I know she'll be cheering the loudest(besides you):)
ReplyDeleteI hope tomorrow brings sunshine & smiles. I know at least a few will come when you look at these in the next few days.
What a thoughtful friend.. Those r beautiful! Praying that you have better days ahead of u. And yes I totally agree.. Fuck u infertility!!! Ugh.. Friends likely friend are truly amazing.
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