Beta #1........... 153! I am "officially" pregnant. My doctor kept using the word "exceptional." "You're exceptionally pregnant." "Your numbers are exceptional." Holy shit, I'm pregnant! (As if there was any denying the 7 pregnancy tests I've taken?) He is so confident in my levels that he doesn't want me to come back in until next Friday for another test. How will I ever make it another week without being tempted to POAS? Today was amazing. After the blood draw we stopped at (where else?) Pane.ra because I had a dream about a french toast bagel last night. It was strange, like a Homer Simpson donuts-flying-through-the-air type dream. Weird.
After we grabbed some breakfast we headed over to BRU in search of baby books. As we were pulling into the parking lot I was telling Mike about how the heart(s) will start to beat as early as next week and I said, "Isn't that amazing?" Mike responded with, "No, you know what's amazing? The fact that we're about to go into BRU for us and not someone else. I never thought that would happen." I cried. He laughed at me and I showed him this picture --->As we walked into BRU I just had to take this picture because like Mike said, it was a really big deal we were about to walk in there to buy something for ourselves!
I know it's really early but I bought a pregnancy journal and already started filling it out. I have been waiting almost four years for this and I want to remember everything that we're going through right now. I had to laugh at some of the questions at the beginning though, "Was this pregnancy planned or a surprise?" "When did you first start thinking about having a baby?" "Did you get pregnant right away or did it seem to take awhile?" I couldn't help but shake my head and laugh.
Mike's been wanting to rub my non-existent belly a lot and talk to Bunsen and Beaker. It's going to take me a long time to get used to this. He said something like, "What? I want to rub it. You have my child growing inside there." and my reply was, "Yeah, I sure hope they put the right ones back in." He did not appreciate this joke at first but before long we were joking about our kids coming out looking like Michael Jackson, back when he was cute. So obviously I don't have a bump yet but what I do have is BLOAT. I'm still in the "Is she pregnant or did she eat too much pizza?" stage, especially since my pants haven't buttoned since I started all the IVF drugs. At least I don't have to suck it in anymore! <3
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| 4 Weeks |
How big is baby?
Symptoms: Lots and lots of cramps (Please God, let this be normal!) Fatigue and bloat.
Total weight gain/loss: I've gained three pounds since the start of my IVF cycle.
Maternity clothes? None. Just a belly band. I've been bloated this entire IVF cycle so it's more out of comfort than necessity.
Sleep: I'm exhausted and in bed by 8 most nights. Unfortunately I'm up around 3 every morning for some reason and I always have a difficult time getting back to sleep.
Best moment this week: Getting my first ever positive pregnancy test and telling Mike, "There's two lines!" Movement: It's way too early.
Food cravings: Pizza. Especially greasy Costco pizza.
Gender: Too early.
Labor Signs: Nope.
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: Nothing really. Life is good.
What I am looking forward to: Seeing our baby(ies) heartbeat(s) at our first ultrasound on 12/30.
Next Appointment: Next Friday for a repeat blood draw.
Weekly Wisdom: If you're still struggling with infertility, cling to hope. I am living proof that miracles do happen.
Milestones: Just getting pregnant is a pretty huge milestone in my life right now.
