Can I get a do-over?

Today was horrible. My infertility clinic sucks. I got some potentially bad news and with the help of Dr. Google I have made myself sick with worry. I want to write all about it but I just don't have it in me right now.

Looks like I need to repeat this to myself once again.

Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

It's a Black Fly in Your Chardonnay

Irony is receiving a 10 pound box of formula samples and $20 worth of coupons that you don't remember requesting on the day you find out your second IUI failed.
Thanks, Similac.

Yup, that says MOM PREFERRED.

Double You Tee Eff Similac.

Do You Hear That?

It's the fat lady singing. IUI #2 was officially a BFFN. Femara, here I come!

Has My Body Failed Me Again?

The spotting started yesterday. 9 freaking days post-IUI.  I'm 11dpo today and the spotting has intensified. Just like it does every single month when the bitch's arrival is imminent. This isn't "Hmm...I've never had spotting like this before." This is "this shit happens every month" spotting.  My vow to stay away from Dr. Google has already been broken thanks to this stupid spotting.  I know it's early and that it's not over until the fat lady sings but I'm 99% sure that IUI #2 was a a big fat failure. 

So...what does that mean for us? Well, it means we'll be moving on to Femara + IUI next month. The RE told me that he doesn't like to do IUI with injectables because of the risk of multiples and cancellation due to overstimulation. I'm not sure how many rounds of Femara we will be allowed to do but he did tell us that our chances of conceiving with IUI decrease each month after four our five. Statistically, if I am going to get pregnant with IUI it will happen in the first few months. Third time's the charm?

Words to Live By

Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterdays. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Which Category Best Describes You?

I'm decided to take some surveys so that I could earn Disney Movie Rewards points. This was question #1.

Which ONE of the following categories best describes you?

• Not a parent yet, but planning to become one in the next 12 months
• First-time expecting parent (currently expecting your first child or multiples)
• First-time newborn parent (have only one child or multiples who is 6 months or younger)
• First-time parent (have one child or multiples who is between 7 months and 3 years)
• Experienced parent (have multiple children, the youngest being between 0-2 years old)
• Gift-giver (currently have no children under the age of 3 years old but frequently shop for a baby in your life)
• Parents or caregiver of a special needs child(ren) (any age)

I never thought a question like this would be so difficult to answer. Yes, most normal people could legitimately guess that they'll be parents in the next 12 months. Not us.  =( Infertility sucks.

Preconception Mompetition.

I found this freaking hilarious. As ridiculous as it is, some women do actually get competitive over their infertility.  

"I'm on two thousand daily. I grind it up, roll up a page of Taking Charge of Your Fertility and snort it off my OPK box." Genius.